Trying to heal from WW - part 2

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Thanks guys. CW i get what you are saying about pausing and thinking, im not great at controlling my emotions in the moment. When something triggers me i tend to lose my senses a bit and I'll do something even if i know at the time it isnt the right thing, working on it.

OB, i read the story and it is something i have heard before and i get it. Fair enough, i feel like im in exactly the same position as you. Cant trust them as the people we used to know (or think we knew, i definitely believe my W lied and hid alot of herself in the beginning of the relationship) and i didnt let myself believe the bad that came later was really her. The thing is alot of stories i heard of how she was before she met me started making sense later on.

Quick update my side, pretty much come to the realisation how small my odds of fixing this were (even before all the mistakes i have made in the last 6 months). Obviously the mistakes haven't helped the situation but thats the past now and need to forgive myself and move forward, just like the mistakes in the M. Found out my dad has a surf board in his storage room, so going to give that a go again on saturday. Also going to borrow a guitar and start playing again for the 1st time in about 10 years. Been going to Youth Connect at my new church every week for 3 weeks now. Slacking a bit on the gym and reading, fell into a bit of a bad place for the last 2 weeks but started pulling myself out of it again yesterday. One step at a time.