Steve_letting go part 3.

[Steve_]

The IC was with a LMFT (Licensed marriage and family therapist) Yeah I need psychotherapy not an LMFT. So Im gonna ask the VA to switch providers.

I honestly have a plan going forward that I think will work for me. I am going to just distance myself as much as I can, be there 100% for my kids, and when she asks for anything else just politely and respectfully decline. No anger, no games, no manipulation no trying to solicit any "feelings". Just time and distance and being steady and not bouncing around her emotional games. I want to be a Steve who is not gonna be pissed one day or a push over the next. Honestly things have been a lot easier and this distance has grown greater since I haven't been talking to her or doing anything to "fix things." Im gonna take my day off tomrrow and go fishing up in the hills after I get my truck registration and so on taken care of. I really need to stop worrying about eveyone else and find some inner peace.

I feel like the best option I got right now is to stop doing anything and just worry about myself and my kids. I do realize at this point there really is nothing I havent tried and none of it worked. Its not even about DBing for me now, its just about not going underwater and getting to a place I can just be happy with being alone. That's what I'm gonna work on right now.