OK, so it's lockdown 3 and I'm single again and a bit fed up! I did a bit of online dating but nobody wanted to meet up. Then I swiped right on someone I liked the look of, even though his profile was blank (I have a rule to not swipe on someone with a blank profile!). Met up with him and I was feeling poorly due to allergies. He said he found me very attractive and we danced around meeting up at his flat, it was quite funny. I was helping out at school with testing (even though ds2 was at home online learning) so I had plenty of negative tests and my kids never go out, he similarly didn't really see anyone indoors so we decided it might be technically illegal but was safe. I really liked him and we had unbelievably good sex. Like the best I've ever had. He went kind of quiet and I figured he has commitment issues. We met up again, still unbelievably good sex. I don't know why I find him so attractive because although he's quite clever and funny and good company, he is very closed off. Like he hasn't ever talked about his daughter or his ex to me. So hmm, really not sure about him, but the chemistry! OMG. He goes radio silent for 2 weeks and I leave him alone. My ego is hurt, plus what was all that great sex about?

In the meantime, someone I'd matched with and chatted with over text asked if I wanted to meet for a walk. I said yes since I figured it probably wasn't going anywhere with unbelievably sexy man (he's not unbelievably sexy, just I find him so, it's weird). I figured this new man sounded a bit lonely and might want a friend, I like making new friends. Interestingly enough, this one also had a blank profile! Though some lovely photos, he's an artist. I met him for a walk and actually really liked him, we got on very comfortably. He asked if I wanted to come back to his place and I said maybe next time (I had lots of work on). So a week or so later I did meet him at his place and he is also very good in bed (though not as mindblowingly so as USM!). He is also very sweet, very open, very calm and there is something about him which makes him very relaxing to be with. He likes to admire my body in bed, I'm not sure I've ever been with someone who admires my body like this! Well, he is an artist smile I've met him one more time, he does not pursue me relentlessly like my last boyfriend of last year, but he keeps in regularly touch unlike USM. I feel quite chilled out about this relationship, it's the first one so far I've just been relaxed about. I figure either it will work out or it won't, and if it won't there are plenty more men out there. But I have a good feeling about this man, I can see us having a future together but both having our own lives to live. He is a widower, his wife having died suddenly about 18 months ago. He's in a remarkably good place about it considering.
Oh, and USM texted me on Friday wondering what I was up to. Men! I deserve better than USM, his behaviour is pretty shabby really. I am not a booty call. I want a relationship with someone who respects me and my time, and wants me in their life. I'm going to tell USM this.

Right, now to the H update! My love life takes precedence lol. This is my future, H is my past