Hi Hope, thanks for checking in! As you can see, I wandered off for a while, I came back to update today because of my news. Getting out of limbo at last! OK, last time I was getting fed up of new man. I dumped him, he couldn't accept my feelings about lockdown 2. I was depressed because I realised that we were going to have a lockdown of sorts during the depths of winter and that things wouldn't improve till at least March. I'm sorry that I was right. Lockdown 3 was tough, winter is depressing enough without taking all the fun out of it. Anyway, I didn't like that my man couldn't support me through a difficult time. He was all like 'yeah it's really tough for me too'. Ugh, just let me be upset without cheering me up! So I told him that I wasn't in a position to be in an R. I probably wasn't. It was a difficult time. Covid rule changes messed with my head. Ds2's school shut for 2 weeks. Then lockdown 3 hit. Ds1 wasn't able to go back to uni. Everything shut. All fun banned. It was horrible. The only good thing was that ds1 started coming out for walks with me occasionally. He still is. Christmas and H had asked if he could come and stay for 2 nights over Christmas. I reluctantly said yes. He arranged to get his dog looked after. Then the covid rules all changed as cases rocketed. H said he couldn't get rid of the dog. He came to visit on Christmas eve and said he wouldn't stay. I was really cross because he gave some ridiculous excuses, and felt like he cancelled on the kids at the last minute. But on Christmas day I woke up with a feeling of peace. Had a lie in. Put the turkey on and went running with a friend and her husband. Light as a bird. Came home and opened presents over facetime with H and then the kids came for a lovely walk with me. Then home and big dinner and we played games. It's actually the best Christmas I've EVER had. Because H wasn't there. Going to start a new post because this is long
