Hi LH, thanks for your reponse. I know i am being really weak and i realised it was a setback, dont think i was as detached as i thought. Going no contact for so long made me feel like i was detaching but her showing me that she is still human made me go back to my old mindset of having hope and trying again to reach out to her which was stupid of me.
I honestly have no idea whats going on in her personal life or who she is seeing, i heard from one mutual friend that she was seeing my friend but thats all i know and dont know what to believe.
I did eat it up, even if i knew what she was saying was BS. Anytime she said anything that gave me hope i would latch on to it but i know i cant trust what she says.
She cheated once a few months before we got married, didnt again as far as i know until we were seperated. But that i guess should be more than enough times to make me realise. Once should have been enough to open my eyes, do think she is a serial cheater and its her default setting.
Obviously that wouldnt be the ideal thing for me but its fear of moving on. I hate change and the life i had was familiar to me and comfortable. I know there is no going back and that mindset is keeping me stuck. I am very stubborn and i do try to listen to everyones advice but struggle to put it into practice. I understand how frustrating i can be. Thanks for the advice, will try get my hand on these books.
Ace it’s all good and understand it’s hard because I lived through it myself. I’m convinced these things happen for a reason to show us where we are not free. You will never be happy in a relationship if you are a prisoner in it. Start learning to adapt and be uncomfortable in certain situations.
