Look Ace I know I was rough on you but you really do not understand how you should consider yourself lucky this happened to you now and not years down the road when you had children.
This x1000! And I am not trying to minimize what you are going through in any way, but you have the opportunity to focus 100% on what's best for you without the guilt and/or pressure of considering what's best for your kids. Take advantage of that. Be selfish as hell.