Jouranling/Venting

So last night D18 texts me whats for dinner on her way home from band competition. Says she texted stbxw but she never responded (because she is with OM). I ate dinner with D18 then we watched TV then she went to sleep over a friend's house. Stbxw slithered in around midnight from OM's I dont know why she just doesn't sleep there wherever it is.

Stbxw and I had discussion today about kids college, doesn't, understand why we should not enourage D18 to go to expensive private art school. I point out we have enugh so they can go to the state school with no debt, instead of massive debt for private school. Stbxw just does not seem to grasp that things are going to be vastly different when D goes through, unless OM is going to pick up the tab. We can not agree on anything these days. I really miss my partner, and I look at her she looks the same or better (never goes out without full makeup) but I feel like she is Godzilla, wrecking everything we spent years building and saving for.

Oh, and stbxw is mad because I woke her up getting the dog out of her room at 530 am says I am incomsiderate and rude. Like having an affair openly is not rude. The contempt from her towards me is thick, but everything is perfect in her life she should be happy. It is hard for me to believe that she loved me for 27 years basd on the way she treats me now. She did a true 180.


Me 57/W 53, M 23, T 27

D21/D17

BDay 6/29/20, ILYBINILWY

IHS 10/5/2020