. And the same reasons I stood (my children) are still here, still have no idea any of this happened and I still think it is worth it-- for them and for my H and me-- to give this M the best shot we possibly can.
Having gone through all of this, I don't think I would be satisfied with a mediocre M again. M1.0 won't do it for me any more. M2.0 or bust! wink
I love it, May. For someone who used to describe themselves as having a tendency to control, I've been inspired by your ability to wait and see where he heads, to acknowledge what you're feeling, but not let those feelings lead you into rash actions. When you have acted (e.g., when you walked towards divorce) it's been decisive, believable, and had an impact. I hope your husband does the work to keep you. It sounds like you want an intact family badly--maybe you'd even accept a M1.5 instead of a full-blown M2.0? Obviously, a M1.0 wouldn't be worth it. Stay true to yourself, because the May you are is awesome.
