Steve_letting go part 3.

[Steve_]

So a pretty eventful week.

WW got me a pair of nikes made for nurses that I wanted. Told me she wants to go to Hawaii with me in a month and the kids. To take the time off work. Became very sweet. I went over to her moms to get mine and my kids hair cut and she asked me to go hiking, to come over etc etc. I just sat there and looked at her in the most like are you serious look I could muster and said “honey I’m not a side husband. You can be single or you can be with me fixing this, it’s not both.” She just said “well I’m not even going out of doing anything just be patient let me see if this is what I want” I laughed and said well, it’s not like I barely know you and I’m asking for a commitment. We have kids and we are about to get divorced. It’s in or out, I honestly do love you but I certainly don’t need this. She looked really surprised. She said “just let it happen naturally” legit her mom and sister heard it and called her a dumbass in her language. She bought me dinner i played cards with her mom and her and then I left. I felt like.. nothing. Like i felt bad for her in a way that her games aren’t working on me. I only shrugged when she reached for a hug. She then got mad. I asked her to take the kids early so I could go out with friends. She said “don’t get drunk and come over here, or text me ultimatums, you know I don’t like that” I laughed in her face and just got in my truck. She actually thought I would try it lmao.

I went out. I dressed nicely I left her there, and just like sort of laughed at the stupidity I just witnessed. I went out with 3 girls from work and had a blast. My WW tried to ask with who, where I went, etc etc. I didn’t say. Turns out one has been wanting me a long time, she is tall and beautiful, and her BF dumped her that night. She was all over me. I brought her back to my place and I sat her down and just listened to her vent. I had /have no intention of being with anyone. It totally messed with her head I didn’t try to sleep with her. She looked at me and said.. she doesn’t deserve you. I just said “I know” and listened to her talk. At this point both of us are a trainwreck. But it was nice to have a really good looking woman be all over me and pretty much have the strength to friend zone her cause I’m not needing another drama bomb.

All day today random girls That were new kept making comments to me. It’s like something changed and they are looking at me different. A nurse I’m not into asked me to come over and just do the thing. I declined and said you are amazing and I couldn’t do that. (Truth is I don’t even like her that way). I made an appointment to get the rest of my tattoo done Sunday a full-sleeve. I made it to the gym tonight and worked my ass off. Posted a pic and tons of my friends are telling me how great I’m looking. I have made massive improvements.

And my WW goes on a date with a dude. Tonight. I hear it because my friends seen her. And you know what I said? LOL... she almost had me. I knew she was full of it.

I made a study group to help two buddies from work through nursing school. They are coming this week. Also I am taking my kids hiking with a bunch of nurses and friends at work this week. Am I’m okay? No. So I love my wife.. yes I do. But I know it’s over. And it [censored] but I’m gonna be okay.