Hi everyone. It's been a few weeks and I can now see how all the advice I was getting was good advice.
I don't know where to begin....I made a few mistakes...I'm concerned I ruined my chances even more. She's made it clear that she doesn't want to be friends if I have hopes that we would get back together again. People have said she's being clear and considerate and my heart hurt when I read that.
Yesterday I realized that I really must move on, move forward. I was having difficulty with letting go of hope (and to be honest I still do have some) and I'm seeing how it clouds my need to imagine a new future as well as healing my heart.
She is back on the east coast with our daughter for a week, she just found out her mom has cancer and only has a little time left. I gave up my weekend with my daughter for her to travel back home.
Her tone with me has been kind, direct and without any emotion whatsoever.
Every communication and text still hurts.
I'll follow up more later as to what has happened.
Thanks to those that were replying to my posts a few weeks back.
