What stops me Is knowing it won’t matter so I just don’t. Yes it’s hard but I just don’t do it. At some point I had to stop so I did. Neither one of us have gone this long without some game or maniulation or excuse to reach out. About something since Om was gone. Since I stoped so did she. The silence is hard but I am doing it. It’s not more complicated than that. It’s not a game for me anymore.
Being very honest with yourself is good, Steve. Knowing it won't matter is accepting the fact you can't "do something" to change things with her. This is where you have to be in order to start building a new life for you. Yes, the silence is hard, and probably feels strange, but look at you. You are doing it.
Thank you for dropping a line a two. It doesn't have to be any update, but just hearing you say these few words lets us know you are still hanging in there.
((hugs))
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
