Figured I should post an update after reading sandi2's thread.
No real BIG changes to report. We did spend Valentine's together and also most of this weekend. Our time together has been some of the best we've had in years tbh. Even kissing on the lips, which seems small but was something that went away even while we were still sleeping together. The time apart is still tough as it is hard not to get caught up in your head not matter how much you try to GAL. In our talks she has said she has not gone on any dates and has only chatted online and I believe her, but of course that could change at any time. In talking with our MC last week about attachment theory, there's a lot there I can see that is impacting us. Basically her avoidance right now is still too big to want any attachment and my anxiousness adds pressure. We're in a catch-22. She's afraid of turning back and giving things another try because she thinks it will go back to how it used to be and doesn't trust that I can provide what she needs. I can't provide what she needs as long as she refuses to turn back and try and I can't trust her fully in the current situation. Sooner or later, something will have to give as we can't stay in limbo. I'm not putting deadlines or dates out there, but figure I'll know when it is time.
