IDK if she's bad. If hear her co workers and clients talk her up. I think Mr BrightSide said in situations like this, people compartmentalize their behavoir from what they know they should be doing. She is certainly not folowing the guidance of any of the psychoterapy books she has on the bookshelf.
Yes I am getting out into the weather. Last week I was in PA with the snow and the cold and I think I liked that better.
Am I detached, no, not completely but more than last month and way more than last fall. I think if she showed me any respect at all I would be less detached. Right now I m pretty disgusted with her behavior. I think I am kind of following the trajectory of JosephS and Joe2017 (without the severity of their situations) where at the beginning you would do anything to get your wife back, and then later you re like no, get lost you disgust me.
Again, I was with her for 27 years before I saw a glimpse of this so it has been extrely difficult. I dont even know wht the public story is. Only a few of my friends know we are getting D and they know why. STBXW has told her freinds about the D but I'm pretty sure she is not talking about OM. From her I got ILYBINILWY and maybe our relationship has run its course (did anyone else get that? I think it will be that we fell out of love, but whenever you say that people roll their eyes and say what does that mean?
And here is a weird observation. Before BD, for years STBXW would have dreams and yell or talk out in her dreams. since BD, not a peep, sleeps like a baby.
