I don't really write much on my good days... I'm too busy having a good day. I've struggled with insomnia again for the last 2 days.
STBXH texted last week after 7 days of NC asking if I have heard anything from the atty.
I did NOT respond.
The next day STBXH sent a text - hey, CVS said your script is ready. ((He hates that he gets the text notifications and there is NO WAY to change it... have tried for YEARS. In the past he would get angry about CVS texting him and spout off that needs to be fixed... well it can't be apparently. So at least his text did not sound angry.))
I did NOT respond. I don't know if that was the right thing to do??? I mean I know I have a script ready its just unfortunate that he knows it too.
We had 14" of snow last week so I was busy working and shoveling. That was a lot of work for one person!! I was exhausted.
I'm now being cyber stalked by the guy who sent flowers 2 days before Vday and then ended the relationship because I was not looking to be exclusive after 3 dates. He was super nice and just raving about me at the same time as dumping me and I was like peace out... I'm cool.. I'm good. I moved on. He has been stalking me via the dating app by deleting his account and getting a new account twice now in the last 10 days. I'm not interested. He comes across as very anxious.
I've slowed down my dating A LOT. I have a terrible need to reply to people who write to me. I just feel its polite and gracious behavior. Its hard to put yourself out there and take a risk and I just want to show kindness to everyone. Even guys I know I would not have anything in common with and would not date. That being said I have not logged in in 5 days now and I've just been letting messages pile up and don't have any interest in dealing with it.
I did have a date last week and they guy was actually wearing his wedding ring.... ((FACEPALM)). I get I'm legally separated and he had stated he was living on his own legally separated as well - I thought that would be a safe place. We'd have something to talk about. I was not expecting him to still be wearing his ring. I called him out on it but at the same time told him he should not take off his ring until he is ready but that online dating will go better if he is not wearing it. I said we all have to start somewhere. He was nice a guy. We did have lots to talk about and we shared a couple of drinks. It was not a wasted evening... it was part of the journey... his and mine.
I've gotten lax and so my goal this week is to get back on top of things 1) return to daily meditation 2) return to exercise 5 times weekly
