I haven't spoken to WW in a month basically since i confronted her about seeing my friemd , but i really miss her right now and have had a few drinks. Im not going to message her, was very close to though.
This is honestly the worst feeling in the world and i wouldnt even wish this on my enemy.
Going an entire month of NC is great!
It's okay for you to miss the person you married. I want you to understand that you are judged for loving your W. She didn't fall out of love with you overnight, and you will probably always have feelings for the W she use to be. That's okay. Unfortunately, this is part of going through the breakup. It stinks, but you have to feel it and deal with it.
I suppose most people have something they turn to in times of emotional pain. Usually, it's not good for us. If your resolve lowers when you drink, you may need to find some other method of getting through that period. Just don't turn to drugs or things of that nature. ((hugs))
The board has a few LBH's who have been around for years. They are here to help others, and let them know that their life will definitely improve. LH, Another Stander, & Ready are divorced, but they all talk about their lives improving, in spite of not saving their M's. Maybe reading their posts during down times would encourage you.
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
