Midlife Crisis and Affair with Past GF

[Elbereth]

Today I took a long walk and listened to a podcast I heard about via the NYTimes called Alone: A Love Story. It is about a woman who is betrayed by her H and it's her story. I've not finished it yet, and I'm in the part where she has been divorced and has met someone new. Anyway, in the story she speaks of a moment after the BD where she would just drink herself numb. She went to get more liquor and almost ran a car off the road. The older man in the car was yelling and cussing and followed her for a while, very angry. At some point, they had to both stop at a red light and he pulled up beside her, still yelling and screaming. When he looked in her face he could tell she was not well, or okay. He softened immediately and asked if she was okay. She said no. He told her, "lady, whatever you are going through, it will be okay". He promised. He made her say it, and he stayed saying it with her while cars were honking at them to go (when the light turned green). this moment, these words, this caring stranger, allowed her heart to start beating again, and she knew he was right. She would be okay.

The connection and the kindness of strangers. That is what she felt and what I see on this forum, even when we can't see in each others eyes. I've been reading about May, and now I'm reading about your story Sage, and I read Gerda's and Wayfarer's too, and bits and pieces of many others. I'm trying to get to all of them. I am learning so much from your stories, and I am so grateful. I no longer feel alone...the connection of strangers. I'm sorry all of you have had these stories too, but we are all going to be okay. Because we have each other...strangers but connected. And I feel more supported by you all then the people in my life who care about me, because you understand. I feel like you all are looking at me through the window and telling me it's going to be okay. I hope I can do the same for you.

((((Thank you))))