Trying to heal from WW

[97Hope]

It is very tough to do NC but i guess it starts becoming easier when you realise that she doesnt want to hear from you anymore and responds harshly most of the time. I really feel like she doesn't care about me at all anymore, its quite clear from her actions but i still struggle to accept that.

It is tough, I'm sorry you have to do it al all. Something that helped me is saying in my head "To what end?". Whenever I wanted to have that convo with X (or really anyone that just couldn't communicate with me) I would sometimes even have the actual conversation in my mind. How it would REALLY go - not the fantasy that they would 'see the light' and come to their senses....I also posted here a lot with what I wanted to say - a lot of times other posters can see how it would go down, even if our expectations are still high.

You are right that i do tend to focus on the good but there was a lot of bad which was far more than the good. Thinking i should make a list of the good and the bad which will maybe make it easier for me to see the whole marriage for what it was, thanks for the advice.

I hope it helps. We are here for you. Stay strong!!