Sorry that my emotions are great one day and not the next. I'm an extreme introvert with a side of impulsiveness.
I don't know what I want some days. I know the the horrible things that happened in my M as I lived them. S19 hates him for what he did... but frankly, I'm not seeing that guy when we do interact. So it gets confusing.
I'm allowed to grow and change but he is not??? He completely stopped online gaming. That took up a huge chunk of what time he did have at the house. Are his changes getting my attention??? Do I get confused reconciling who he was with this current person??? I do. I'm human. Curiosity is normal.
I thought I was ready to move on date and have a great life. Its been a LONG time since I've dated and things are just a bit crazy out here.
I realize I can run from one extreme to the other - that's just my mind and my thought process.
