Happiness

[Gerda]

(((Scout))))

Like you, I didn't realize that these things were signs of a disordered love.

I think for both of us, we mistook our ability to love them for a true mutual love.

I didn't know that anything better was possible, except in fairytales. I am still not sure except that the guys I know here and maybe one other IRL give me the hope that it is possible for a man to keep loving a woman in a True and self-giving way.

And I think that at least in my case, my love did make H try to be his better self. But I guess that ultimately when MLC hit, the mask or the attempt or whatever it was became too hard.

It sounds like your H was struggling with his demons from day one.