Right now, I think you are using dating as a band-aid to soothe your hurt soul. Unfortunately, this will only work for a period of time and like addicts, you will need to continue seeking that next emotional fix. Step back, work on yourself and when you are more content w/the person you have become, then date.
I think this is proven in her latest post. KC, you seem to get your self-worth from the male attention. "Men keep sending flowers to my office!" "One guy has sent me flowers to the office 2 times!" Etc.
To be honest, my first thought was "WHY do these men know where your office is after 2-3 dates??" I don't know, and I admit I am not a very trusting individual, but that seems awfully early in meeting people from the internet for them to know where you spend your days, and if they know where live, where you spend your nights. And to job's point if your goal is for STBXH bringing puppy in for an appointment (since you continue to refuse the advice for him to find another vet!) and seeing all of the flowers OM are sending you, then after all this time and all these threads you still do not get DBing. At all.
I also wonder what your son thinks of this parade of guys you have marching in and out of your life? I know if my mom and dad D'd and my mom was internet dating strangers from the internet at the rate that you are, I would be extremely concerned for her well-being and safety! Your son has been through so much, worrying about his mom and meeting so many men he cannot trust (why would he with his dad and your STBXH's behavior?) is just another trauma he is having to face.
And if you come back and say that he doesn't know, that bothers me even more! That these men know so much about you in such a short amount of time, and the people closest to you aren't aware, that is SCARY.
Anyway, just some observations. It is your life, but I am just afraid you are going to look back one day with some major regrets.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018
