Trying to heal from WW

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Thanks Sandi, i read almost everyone's new updates and sitches on the newcomer forum but I'm not really at a place yet mentally where i feel like i can add value or even know how to respond on what others are going through. It does help a bit though to know that im not the only one going through this terrible ordeal.

Quick update from my side: i am struggling to deal a bit lately, been drinking almost everyday, not to the point of getting drunk but its an escape for me and helps me numb my mind and emotions for a while. I know its not healthy but i have used it as a coping mechanism since i was very young to deal with what was going on in my life and i know i need to fix that. Been working out more, went for a jog and swim on the beach on saturday and was starting to feel a little bit like my old self but then got caught up in my thoughts on Sunday again and started spiraling. The last few days i have just got to a point of not having a clue what to do, i am considering looking for a job overseas with my qualifications, but i cant keep thinking something new will make me happy.

Havent spoken to W in almost 3 weeks, its the longest i have ever gone without talking to her, been slipping back into searching her on facebook, etc. (I deleted her from everything a while back).