I think with distance you can find empathy for these broken people. The idea of looking at your child and not experiencing that primal rush of love, doubting your own parents' love for you... that is all just so sad.
That being said, I still read your description of his behaviors towards you and it makes me so angry. I guess you can't expect a broken person to act in any other way, but it burns me that his outlet was cruelty towards his pregnant wife/new mom and baby son.
So glad that you are on the other side of this, and hoping that you get that parenting plan signed soon.
xx M
Me (46) H (42) M:14 T:18, D9 & D11 4/19 - 12/19: series of escalating BDs 9/20 - present: R and piecing
