I agree with Eagle, as far as your handling of the situation. I understand you struggle with your feelings, but that is part of the process. The key, that you seem to have a handle on, is separating those feelings from your actions! IE, not letting your feelings tell you how to act. For instance, many LBSs struggle with missing their WAS, so they allow that to cause them to reach out to their WAS when they should be remaining NC. Or causes them to be overly accessible to their WAS when their WAS reaches out to try to keep the LBS attached.
From what you are telling us, you seem to be separating those emotions from your actions. That is the key. And why Eagle says you seem to be 'handling' your situation well.
We all take rides on the emotional rollercoaster. The key is to keep DBing through the ups and downs.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018