I've been rewatching Mad Men lately and this quote made me think. Emphasis mine.
“I don’t think I ever wanted to be the man who loves children,” Don tells Megan. He goes on:
"But from the moment they’re born that baby comes out and you act proud and excited and hand out cigars but you don’t feel anything. Especially if you had a difficult childhood. You want to love them, but you don’t. And the fact that you’re faking that feeling makes you wonder if your own father had the same problem."
Becoming a father was the downfall of X. And knowing what I know of his angry, distant father... maybe that's why.
I'm curious, how was his reaction then when he knew you were pregnant? Was he happy back then?