Its so crazy how we need something like this to happen to make us realise we need to change and actually put the work in. It did break me down and i was very close to spiraling and going into a hole of depression but im not done fighting yet and im goi g to come out of this stronger and better than i have ever been.
This is one of the reasons I try to encourage regular posting. Knowing you have others that have experienced your sitch and survived......or they're in the same place as you currently find yourself seems to help. Especially, if you are reaching out to the other newcomers, saying something to encourage them. You aren't alone.
((hugs))
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
