Onward and Upward!

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Yes. I'm still attached. IDK when that will fully go away, if ever. Detachment is a process. I am not willing to give him more years than I already have - I think that's why it made me angry. She just doesn't get it.

I don't want to be with him. He is still texting/trying to FaceTime..I'm not interested. I don't miss him, I miss old him, but it's like that guy died and is never coming back. When he was here, I felt pity for him but not love love.

When does the clock start, though? It's been 3.6 years since Dday. I've been in IC (regularly) for the first 3 years, and as needed since. IC said I was definitely ready.

Just ticked off because I really wanted to meet that guy. First guy in a looooooong time I've felt any attraction to. There are other guys out there, of course, but it's rare that I have any interest in getting to know a guy.

I think it just ticked me off because it felt so judgy and controlling. Trigger for me.

Love your advice re: advice.

It makes sense that I won't know until I try.

Also - it's completely rational and reasonable that we don't want to remarry. Possibly ever. Nothing wrong with that.

Ugh. This friend has really been there for me. IDK why she gets like this.

Thanks for advice, LH.