I know the pain you are going through. This won't break you. Think of how much you've been through in this marriage already - you are stronger than you know. Tell yourself this every day.
Your heart is having a hard time accepting things, I totally get that. What worked for me is starting with a winning attitude/mindset. I made up my mind that I was not going to let my sitch keep me down. You may take a blow, but you get up and keep going. Next, I controlled my thoughts. If you haven't read the Stop Sign Technique in DR please do. I used that to stop negative thoughts and focused on positive, productive thoughts for every goal, task, or activity throughout my day. Then you control your actions. Do your the right thing and not the thing that you want b/c it is easy. Eventually, your emotions will come along.
Attitude, thoughts, actions, emotions - in that order. Again, it may seem tough right now, but I know you've been through tougher. You can do this.
H 34 W 29 BD 3/12/18 Divorce Busted Spring 19
It is not things that bother us, but the stories we tell ourselves about things.
