J, I want you to read as much about breaking codependency as you can.
Depending on each other is a normal thing in a healthy marriage, so it is hard to break these old habits and behaviors. But you have to. You have got to learn how to live without her right now.
You have to stop attaching your happiness to her, and discover what makes you happy as an individual.
You have to stop wasting time caring about her feelings, and spend every second of your free time learning to care for yourself.
Save yourself. Nobody is coming! BD:11/2017 Filed:12/2017 Final: 2/2018