Midlife Crisis and Affair with Past GF

[Elbereth]

May,

I don't know. It certainly makes things complicated, and with no proof he saw her what can I do? My MC said I could get a restraining order to protect myself, but with no proof? Seems that would stress me out even more and stress my son out. I haven't figured out what to do yet to enforce that one. How do you stop someone from coming into the home they own, with the child here that I have no legal rights to, and where all the alarms, keypads, etc are under their accounts? I have to just keep my distance, disinfect everything, get a hotel or pray?

Today I only texted him messages from XW from the parent portal about kid stuff. He responded to me as if I was asking so I just posted his responses on the portal. Very odd...as if he was distracted. I usually only pretend to be him when I manage expenses as I pay the bills.

Then he mentioned he may pop in tomorrow before he heads up for skiing in the pass. Which is odd; I thought that was where he was? And he was supposed to give me back the car he is using on Thursday not tomorrow? Believe nothing they say. It's so right. I have no idea or proof of where he has been the last few days. I'm hoping I am not around if he pops in tomorrow. He didn't ask me any questions, so I didn't respond to his texts. Not responding is odd for me, so he may ping me later to ask if I am okay or something.

Yeah, the ring on his pinky grossed me out too. I felt nauseated. Weirder that he was also wearing our ring too. When I saw it I said "is that your mistress's ring?". He scoffed as if thinking "she is my girlfriend, why are you using the word mistress", and said aloud "mistress?". I said "what else should I call her?". Then immediately said, "I'm not trying to argue with you, but if you would not wear that around me, I'd appreciate it. It makes me feel ill". He answered okay and that was that. I hadn't seen it since. I couldn't tell if he had it on on the zoom call as I didn't see his hands much, but it wasn't on the hand I saw.

Its so weird. Sometimes I feel like I am in some nightmare and I'm going to wake up. Thank goodness that we both have had our first doses of the vaccine, but I still don't feel safe. Her state is not doing as well as ours. The pandemic adds a whole new dimension to this experience. I'm also sad so many others are facing worse stuff than this. So I try to count my blessings. It could be worse. I'm not having a good night. Can you tell?