Sometimes I'm just here because the day is rough and I just need an outlet. If you go back and read I initiated with I'm not wanting to be judged.
Not every day is bad. Sometimes though I go to bed at 9pm because I've got nothing going on and I just want to get through a day without making a mistake or a mistep.
I know I've got anxious attachment and that takes time to work through. You just don't get to wake up one day and say ... nope not anxious anymore... Its a process.
Overall I'm just tired and still filled with LOTS of regret... space and time are the only things that fix those.
