Sent X photos today as I purged my phone of anything with his face in it. They were pics of him and kids/grandkids and I thought I was being kind by providing him with photos.
He texted and asked a legal question. I told him to call me. We talked about it and I suggested some things he could do to stay ahead of it (dangerous situation with neighbor).
While we were discussing his sitch, he kept referring to the ranch as "ours" and other things that suggested he is either selling me a load of horse manure - or he is completely disassociated. IDK. We got off the phone and he seemed quite down.
He texted saying that he needed a 'break' from the photo album I 'shared' with him. . Apparently they were upsetting him.
He texted several hours later and asked to come over.
I let him.
We talked a little, he became emotional again and I said "I don't understand. This is what YOU wanted. I think you would benefit from EMDR therapy and some serious IC. If photos upset you to that degree, you are not in a good place.
*it was a long talk, he was here approx. 4 hours. I listened and validated some things, but for the most part just told him what I saw. I have known him for 25 years. We grew up together. He's an absolute mess. He can only save himself at this point.
IDK - on one hand I feel like I gave him cake. On the other hand, I'm still concerned that he is running as fast as he can from his demons and I know better than some, that you can't possibly outrun them. Praying that God gives me wisdom.
I know demons. You must face them head on and conquer the sons of b**tches.
He's lost. Nothing has changed in the past 3 1/2 - almost 4 years.
I can't help him. Maybe something I said planted a seed.
I can't seem to find a situation this messed up.
He tried to make out with me. I told him that I am aware that he has a girlfriend and that I am not that kind of girl.
ugh. This man.
2 nights ago, there was a call about shots fired. I ran straight into it. No fear. Just knowing my purpose.
This guy, though. Sigh. I know he's on his own journey. I have let him go. I have my own life, he has his.
I don't have answers for this one.
ME47 XH44, S28 S24 S19
8/17-BD IHS: 1/17-2/19 D FILED (ME): 7/19 D FINAL: 10/20 M23 T25 OW CONFIRMED: 01/21
Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.
