Sounds like we have alot in common OnlyBent, glad it is helping you. Thanks man, yeah i guess i only realised these things the last few years and identifying the problem is the first step to making a change. I have faith that i can put the work in and improve.
Yes so i always build up strong walls and it takes a long time for someone to break through, then when i finally let someone in it doesnt really work out. Well that is my experience so far anyway. I am quite reserved and dont really put myself out there, generally talk about superficial things but i dont think i pretend when im around people i just hold parts of myself back unless i feel comfortable with the person. Starting to learn to change this slowly. I think everytime a relationship falls apart i build up more walls though to protect myself the next time, which i need to sort out.
Me 32, W 24 T 6, M 3 No kids BD: Aug 2020 OM: Jan 2021 Wife to file soon