Trying to heal from WW

[OnlyBent]

I think the not feeling good enough comes from my childhood, my dad was always very critical and difficult to please. I could never feel like anything was good enough no matter what i accomplished. I guess that became my own internal narrative to this day, and everyone i know says i am too hard on myself.

I grew up in a very critical household Ace, I have these same feelings. IC is definitely helping me overcome this. Keep at it, mate. 30-odd years is hard to change, so have patience my friend. You will get there if you put the work in. It's amazing the results you get from prolonged and consistent effort.

Not sure about the victim mentality, I think its an instilled fear of rejection. I haven't figured out where that comes from yet but its most likely to do with having to try be what I feel people think i should be and when I don't then they won't accept me. I guess I feel sorry for myself when I feel rejected for who i am.

And the when you get close to people you pull away because you're afraid they won't like the real you? So you can be open with strangers but not those closest to you in life? When you grow up in an environment of criticism you try and be what you think people will like so you can stop it. Problem is that brings other issues, such as people pleasing and fear of rejection.