Onward and Upward!

[97Hope]

Last two days went by in a blur. Very busy. 12 hour shifts and by the time I got home, I didn't even have time/desire to think about anything but what I had to do the next day.

I feel great! The job helps so much. Everyone there is treating me like I am a valuable member of a team. I have spent so much time feeling rejected, unimportant etc. that it's great to be valued.

Haven't thought a whole lot about X. When I do, it's not bad anymore. Just kind of "it is what it is".

Co-workers are curious about my X and the sitch (mostly males). I'm saying little except to my partner who I gave the broad stokes to.

He and I were out and ran into his BF and his friend said I was a '9'. LOL. Well, that felt great!

I think this schedule is going to work out great for me and I love the job itself. Exciting and rewarding and I feel like I've found my calling.

It's nice to hear the guys talk about their wives. In a strange way it reinforces that there are plenty of good men out there. I am so thankful that God put me where I am now. It's amazing how this has all worked out.