You are in control of your emotions, they don't simply "react" like you said but rather act in accordance with all the stories you tell yourself throughout the course of your life.
You look to her for closure? Her actions and words dictate your life? That is attachment and will lead you to this emotional, illogical spiral again.
When you feel the blood boiling today and tomorrow, pause and realize that your perspective is out of whack. Keep your thoughts and emotions in check. Get through these days knowing that even if you have been wronged that you are likely making a bigger deal out of it than you need to. Weigh each decision and realize what is important in your life. You don't need to let her dictate your happiness. I don't think God or Nature intended on you following her lead. You find your own way and do the right thing.
H 34 W 29 BD 3/12/18 Divorce Busted Spring 19
It is not things that bother us, but the stories we tell ourselves about things.
