Thanks LH, her journal shows wnen she was single, she was the OW, that was trying to gain some validation by getting her man. I never saw any indications of her being a cheater during most of the marriage like in a PA. Could she have been in EA. I know she would not share the password to her email, which I thought was kind of odd.
When I confronted her about her bubble bath phone call, she claimed to have two male confidants that she shared stuff wit since high school. If thats true, i do consider that somewhat cheating.
It was only recent that she had been on the phone a lot and did not allow anyone to see the screen and she had unexplained absences.
If you are saying now that she does not think she is cheating I agree.
So I guess what I'm saying is there was some sort of dishonesty during the whole relationship, which rose to her having a PA when she BD or maybe before.