Thanks OnlyBent, i get your analogy of the ice it makes sense and it was probably true in my case as well.
Yeah its the most painful experience of my life and she doesn't seem to care how much damage she is causing. I used to believe that i deserved the way she was with me because she would blame me for hurting her and thats why she would be cold towards me. I stqrted believing that if i was just a better husband then she would be nice to me and show me affection, the thing is that her love shouldn't have been that conditional and im starting to realise as well that while i may not have been the best husband i definitely dont deserve this.
Sorry for what you have been through as well, i am not completely familiar with your sitch. Have you got divorced or still seperated and trying? Thanks for the encouragement, will keep moving forward because i dont really have a choice. I only have 2 options really, which is to let this ruin my life and be stuck in a hole and never move on or to realise that i cant change the past but hope that there are better things planned for my future and start working towards that. I believe that this all happened for a reason and i needed to be removed from a toxic situation.
Me 32, W 24 T 6, M 3 No kids BD: Aug 2020 OM: Jan 2021 Wife to file soon