Moved myself on over to the D side! I used to read the posts here and hope and pray that I wouldn't be here, but I've accepted that this is my new life and it's not anywhere near as bad as I had imagined.
In a lot of ways, my life is so much more peaceful.
I had really hit my stride right up until I found out about OW. Still trying to shake the gross feeling deep down.
Today was so much better. I started my new job! A Lot of admin to do, won't really start working until Wednesday - and there are 2 days of observation. Then long 3 day weekend and I'm off to the races next Monday.
S19 Called today. He said the letter "made me absolutely lose it, I love you, Mom" - I'm hoping he is able to leave this chaos here. Well, there. I'm trying to keep it out of my head.
I was a little down this morning getting ready for work. For some reason it bothered me out of the blue to be so alone. I haven't really felt this until today.
I got to a place where I just woke up and got ready to go. IDK why today was different. But then I received a DM from several people cheering me on and it made a big difference.
Guess just feeling a little lonely. Maybe it's because son is back at school and he just left...
Time will help.
Crossfit classes have been full when I am free. Don't know if it's going to work out at the location closest to my house, but I need to do something. Can't sit here feeling like this.
Hope everyone found joy today in something.
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ME47 XH44, S28 S24 S19
8/17-BD IHS: 1/17-2/19 D FILED (ME): 7/19 D FINAL: 10/20 M23 T25 OW CONFIRMED: 01/21
Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.
