She has exhibited ZERO behaviors in the last 5 months that would indicate anything different than divorce. And in the last 17 months the reality is she has exhibited ZERO Proactive behaviors that would indicate anything different.
I have not been honest with myself because I couldn’t accept it. She has sent some mixed signals, but in reality it was me trying to read what I wanted into her behaviors. I’ve got to move on.
My only caution here is that there a difference in accepting that she isn't coming back and not wanting to go back to the way things were. Lots of LBSs get to the point where they finally realize that their walkaway is not going to change their mind, but the LBS is still OPEN to that possibility deep down and ready to accept any conditions the WAS puts on it. What I want you to do do is work towards the latter, not WANTING to go back to the way things were. Then if she decides she does want to come back, you are the one that states conditions for that to occur! (MC, IC for her, etc.)
But I agree with the others, great step in stopping yourself from the celebration champagne.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018
