She has exhibited ZERO behaviors in the last 5 months that would indicate anything different than divorce. And in the last 17 months the reality is she has exhibited ZERO Proactive behaviors that would indicate anything different.
I have not been honest with myself because I couldn’t accept it. She has sent some mixed signals, but in reality it was me trying to read what I wanted into her behaviors. I’ve got to move on.
The next thing will be how to limit my emotional reactions to her BS. ———- Today was her first day a work. On my way out of the house, I decided to grab a bottle of champagne and write a bit with it “Congrats, hope you have a great day.” I left it in the garage where she will drop off the kids stuff and began to pull away. Then I stopped and thought, what am i doing?! I opened the garage up, grabbed the note and the bottle, and drove away. She fired me. She doesn’t get that kind of attention from me anymore, was my thought.
