So, I need to go to sleep. I really do. It's nearly 1am and I've just submitted another week's homework assignment and need to get up at 6:30 for work like always. But, Yail hasn't been sleeping much these days so here I am instead.
Aside from my inability to sleep I've been good. Really, really good. Very mundane life stuff such as being over 1/3 of the way complete with my MBA, making a ton of good foods, doing good on the budget (not saving, but not spending either), staying HEALTHY, sewing again etc. Staying in close contact with my BFF for mental health/social well being. Also with other friends. Generally kicking butt at my job when possible. So yes, that's all good.
I'm being pulled in by potential flirting with the same girl I mentioned in my last post. Has it 3 months and nothing has happened? yes. I'm in the same place where I think maybe we are flirting...but we are both incredibly hesitant. Shortly after my last post we all went to work from home for the holidays, and we are only returning now, so the break in our communication was legit. I had written her off as uninterested, and decided I would be okay with having a private little interest in her, but not pursue. I don't ever want to create anything awkward at work unless both people were interested, you know? But yesterday we worked together all day and chatted a lot. I got to know her a tiny bit more. what I learned had me smiling. We want exactly the same thing out of life. It just made me smile.
I'm not crazy planning our life together or anything! But I was so calmed by her presence and seeing someone with this same core value that I have. It opened my eyes to who she is a little bit, and I liked what I saw. I teased her most of yesterday about anything I could, made her blush at least once, and laugh a lot. But still, she keeps the professional barrier up. Unless she chooses to take a step forward, I will let it be. I think I've subtly shown my hand, but I want someone who is interested back.
