Yeah i have been trying to accept things and let go for a long time, but i struggle with trying to control everything in my life and it isn't possible and just wears me out. I also wasn't happy in our marriage, so i dont know why im clinging so hard. I always wanted to work through our problems but i think it is probably my pride that is hurt pushing me the last few months. I am also very analytical and try to solve and understand things, which is impossible in this situation.
Mumin and dunnm, sorry i didnt reply to your messages and thanks for your responses too. Mumin, is 'love must be tough' a book as well? Dunnm, fair enough on what you say. My head constantly tells me to run and i deserve better, trying to convince my heart is a different story.
Me 32, W 24 T 6, M 3 No kids BD: Aug 2020 OM: Jan 2021 Wife to file soon