So we've finally settled into a routine - it helps to have a week without a family member contemplating suicide and/or breaking bones and going to the ER. She was at the studio last week and I had the kids at the house, today we switch. I've been keeping things "aloof but available" and to be fair, work was sh!t last week so I didn't have much energy to think about other things as I usually would. I also heard that one of my best friends dad passed away. We grew up on the same street and have known each other all our lives, families used to do things together, 47 years of b-day parties, graduations, BBQs, weddings, births, etc. so it was a blow. Much more than I had imagined it would be. My friend went thru a similar situation as me, his wife left him for a co-worker about a year ago, so we've been helping each other out lately.
In talking to my IC I told her how much I just wanted to run. Not to anywhere specific, but just get in the car and run. Sometime between being a single parent, work, this whole separation, people dying, and everything else it just makes you want to tap out and bail. I won't. I know that. But it sounds nice. Buy a 1-way ticket to Manzanita, MX and live on a beach. lol. Anyway - pity party and MLC over.
I've also been reading back through my posts since joining and wanted to thank all of you who have taken the time to chime in and offer help. I deeply appreciate it - no matter how this works out you've helped me handle it better and be a better person in the end. So thank you.
