I have had a tough time getting it through my head, ive blamed my WW for playing mind games to manipulate me but honestly its my fault for allowing it. After talking with IC its a big lack of self-respect that I have and a huge fear that i'll lose her if I dont nice her back. Thus far nicing her has got me "friend zoned" so to add to the stack of times its been said "nicing her back doesnt work". Turns out of course shes told me more lies and OM actually broke up with her yesterday, Of course she lied and told me they arent going to see each other because they agreed, no lol its cause OM messaged me and told me he is done, But she doesnt know that. I for a moment last week wanted to believe her sob story that she learned her lesson, that she admitted she messed up. Then I got my hopes wayyyyyy up and yep they came crashing right back down.
At this point in my life I am just so overwhelmed with the amount of crap ive endured the last few months, and allowed myself to be affected by. My focus now is not letting things get to me ive done a terrible job.
Last edited by Steve_; 01/22/2106:27 PM.
T:11 M:10 K: D5, S7 BD: 9/1/20 WW continues to break up and recon with OM. I paid last fees and pushed the D 5/3/2021 Default Dissolution granted 8/5/21. Glad my D was not busted.
