(((hugs))) Cry, I'm sorry you're here. Do to you have someone to talk to? Someone that you've confided in about you situation? We are all here for you. The advice you are getting is spot on. H is going to do what he wants. The best thing I ever did was LET GO.... and let my XH figure himself out. I listen to him like I was a therapist. He had no interest in going to talk to someone, or trying to work things out... he had already checked out... and later I found out of OW/xgf.
I was standing for at least a year...let him go... acted as if... and it got me through many days. I became a better me, became more independent, healthier and gave in when he wanted to proceed with a divorce. I don't want to be with someone that doesn't want to be with me. And I wouldn't want to be in a loveless relationship. It's hard, one of the hardest times in your life. You will be okay no matter what. It takes time... one day at a time.
Find someone to talk to. You need all the support you can get. I was a chicken and didn't talk to anyone for a long time, as it was easy to hide what was going on, but in hiding, I was hurting. Thankful that I have this forum for sure.
Take care of YOU. And your kids. You are strong. YOU WILL be okay.
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~Never Give Up ~ 2019 Mar BD June BD Dec Aow/xgf 2020 Jan he wants D Feb he flys2 ow Mar returns stuck here C19 Lckdwn Apr he leaves for work until Nov Oct D FINAL 2020 Living MY Happiest Life Ever