Hi hope! Thanks for stopping by. My fad has not reached out which means he’s mad at me waiting for an apology. And like you said, hope, “am I really surprised by his behavior “ nope. Usually I cave, he starts guilting and yelling at me when I do, and I just am not in a place to handle it.
Things have been pretty difficult lately. My daughter has been smacked so badly with the teen years. I was warned, but I was NOT ready. She’s mean to me. Like all the time. Everything that comes out of her mouth is nasty, snarky,and just down right hurtful. I can’t stand it anymore. I actually sit in my driveway and don’t want to come in from work because I’m dreading it knowing how she’s going to be. How awful is that? She my kid! The one I absolutely loved spending time time with. Now she’s just mean. She left with her dad until Tuesday night and I am relived! How awful is that?!! When the person you love the most is disrespectful and mean to you, man, it hurts. Maybe she needs some time away. I tried sitting her down and asking if there was something bothering her, if she wanted to talk about something and she said everything is great. It’s a really tough thing to experience alone. I usually do everything for her, take where she wants, do what she wants, Cook what she wants, etc. I’m not doing it anymore. I’m done until she shapes up. It’s been really hard and lonely around this house.
Work is my refuge. I am appreciated there, I love my coworkers and I feel like I’m doing something good and right. Most of the time. I am really lucky to work where I am appreciated. It’s not often in healthcare that happens. It’s mentally taxing to watch people die of covid everyday after a long battle, and it’s usually a long battle. I’m happy when I can set people up with what they need to go home after being in the hospital for a month. But seriously, the only place I feel loved and appreciated is work. I guess I’m lucky to have that.
Tuesday I get my second dose of vaccine. I’m preparing for a miserable 12 hours from what I hear from all my coworkers. Fever chills, body aches, headaches. But it means it’s doing what it’s supposed to, so I’ll take it. I look forward to a little bit of normalcy and less fear. Back to work tomorrow, I work 2 hours from home Saturday and a full day Sunday I signed up for at my other job. Extra money I guess. I don’t need it badly, so I might do something nice for myself with the money I make from Sunday.
Oh, want to hear something pathetic? My dog usually sleeps at the bottom of the bed. The other nice he decided to snuggle against my back. Feeling his warm weight dam bear made me cry.
