Possibly marking my territory - although it didn't feel like it at the time, and I've never been one to pee in a circle around a man - could have been driven to it had I not found this community and IC. ; )
I do have a new motto going forward "You can flirt with my man if you want to..if he flirts back, you can keep him."
One reason I am going back and forth on even casual dating for now is that X flirted constantly with anyone and everyone and I don't want anything to do with that. Constant attention seeking. Truly, I would rather be alone than be around that. Turns my stomach.
The evil grin....YES!! That was more like it even with the sleeping with him TBH. I'm dating myself but there was a song in the late 80's early 90's "Boom I got your boyfriend. I got your man" Lord forgive me for liking that. LOL The beat is funny the song is a howrecker tune...but anyway - That's where my head was.
That's what my IC was trying to tell me and you've summed it up. He cautioned it would harden me. It didn't completely make sense until you put it like that. It was about rubbing her nose in the fact that I'm a threat. But the fact is, I'm not the threat - I don't want him and as part of my beliefs - I can't do this anymore because it's using X. I don't want to do that.
It is not the direction I want to be headed! At this point anything tying me to him emotionally needs to go.
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ME47 XH44, S28 S24 S19
8/17-BD IHS: 1/17-2/19 D FILED (ME): 7/19 D FINAL: 10/20 M23 T25 OW CONFIRMED: 01/21
Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.
