Hope, I believe we are in the same graduating class here on DB . I am still struggling with detachment, so your latest encounter with X is fascinating to me. I think your strength and candor are marvelous, and will be cheering you on.
I am guessing that your faith, which shines through so wonderfully in your earlier post on this thread about the party guests, may have helped you a lot. DB is not a path for the spiritually impoverished, that's for sure.