Helped WW move all the way out of OM with a couple family members and friends. Her FIL ripped her a new one when she moved back into the IL's home. I made sure her and the kids were situated. I still remain in my own apartment. WW wanted to have the "talk" about our future. She asked me if I want to get the divorce, she said something told her not to do it and right now she is not sure if we should get the divorce and start over or just stay M. I told her that it was not important to me either way. She asked for time to figure herself out, she said she doesnt want to be with anyone and wants to be alone for awhile. I encouraged that and told her that it is very important that she does take some time to figure herself out. She told me she doesnt want to divorce me but needs to be alone and not with anyone for awhile. I told her that if she plans on dating, seeing other men, living a single party life sleeping with others than I would prefer to continue the divorce. She told me she has 0% intrest in other men and she apologized for destroying my life, she told me that she realized that no other person will ever love our kids like I do and no other man will ever love her the way I do. She seems remorseful and regretful more than she has been. She also seems respectful and is not attempting to just pick up where we left off.
I know that our M is broken, she is broken, at this time I have become used to the fact that she is lost and nobody can do anything for her but time and reality. She asks that we spend time together as friends and go from there and rebuild our relationship the right way I told her I will not accept strictly platonic friends and If she is not interested on working on the M there is no reason to stay married. She agreed to my terms on not seeing others and working on the M slowly over time. She has asked me to spend time with her and the kids daily since she moved in, I have spent some time with them but I do not stay when she asks me to stay. Sometimes she is affectionate sometimes she is not. But she is always happy to see me. I know that she will need to do some serious internal work but she has agreed to therapy and to just work on herself for now.
I have no expectations of her, I feel like I will be let down. I do not expect her to change and I expect to be D'd a year from now simply because I wont tolerate disrespect anymore or any OM. So we will see.
T:11 M:10 K: D5, S7 BD: 9/1/20 WW continues to break up and recon with OM. I paid last fees and pushed the D 5/3/2021 Default Dissolution granted 8/5/21. Glad my D was not busted.
