Hi Apsara, I just read your story and I'm sorry you are here as well. I too was active on the forum from a distance for almost 18 months before I actually wrote done my story. I'm so happy I did.
2 weeks post BD2 whereby H stated he wanted a divorce and again the ILYBNILWY story. (+ informed family & friends via phone a week later)
...and I'm actually doing just fine, the burden disappeared. Is it because BD1 was almost 2 years ago, because I finally found peace as I don't have to deal with the MLC madness anymore, because I actually can make plans to move forward in my life (and not stand still or go backwards anymore), don't know what is it but I'm not feeling bad, angry or sad.
Big help as well is that I didn't hear from him anymore and I hope this will be the case in the future as well. I can fully let him go now.
I can imagine I'm not there yet and I most likely will have a relapse, but for now I wanted to share with you that I'm just fine
